Sayonara!!!

Helloo folks.....

Will be right back after 4 months...ummm.....will miss blogging...

Till thenn bba byee....

_Goblet Pumpkin

The bar is much higher

Someone said it and I quote,

Life is like swimming/running.If you are aiming to swim 5 laps , u get tired after the 4th one.. But if you are aiming to swim a hundred laps, 5 laps isn't a problem. The bar is that much higher.

I just went..

Wandering I went

No way, no path was meant,

I just went and went...

Confused I was,

But there was no way alas!

So I just went and went..

Will I had for going,

Bill.....fate had for reaching

I simply went and went...

Direction I met,

Goal was set,

I went and went..

It was then I knew,

Wandering why did I flew

_Goblet Pumpkin

What went wrong?

I think and think..

And I think again...

What did I do?

I have no clue….

What went wrong?

No, I m not strong….

I dig and dig…

Back into the time..what happened so big

That everything came to a standstill

From where I could see no will

I wish I would have known..

Why was the flame blown?

Why was I thrown?

Why do I have to take this?

Why?

I tried hard and hard,

But all I could get was only dread and dread.

Every moment was a test,

There was nothing that could rest…

Everything was moving..

Everyone was going

And all I could do was nothing,

Absolutely nothing…

-Goblet Pumpkin

KEEP GOING.........

When you think and think..

But still, can't conclude..

When you try and try,

But there is no way you can succeed..

When you fight and fight,

But no solution seems to be right..

When you pray and pray,

But things become harder and harder..

When you question and question,

But every answer you find, turns into a question..

Don't worry, just sit back..

Close your eyes..

Think about your Dad,

The spark in his eyes,

The pride on his face..

That untold love...

Then you will see..

How every question reveals an answer..

How every fight reaps a solution,

How every prayer will make you stronger...

All you need to do is...just keeep going..

-Goblet Pumpkin

IT IS GOING....I CAN'T STOP IT...

All this is going to end..it pains....

The time cant stop..it really pains..

God!!!why do I have to take this?

Nothing would be the same..

Life will be so lame..

Nobody to hug..nobody to smile...

Everybody miles and miles away

It wouldnt be same ever..

Nobody to kick you and take you along..

When you say you are sick

Itz never gonna return...its all going now..

I wish I could hold it...I wish I could just not let it go...

Those hangouts..

Those long hours.....of doing nothing..

But it meant everything..

That sheer joy...

Those quarrels..those tears rolling down the cheeks...

All will be gone..now....

Will be left only with...memories...

Those voices...will always echo ....

Those bustling corrridors will always pass by me....

It will always be right in me....with me.. always...

Goblet Pumpkin

IN THE DARKNESS

In In the darkness of the night,

I sat alone.

My whole self was yearning for brightness aloud,

But all I could get was loneliness abound…

In all these years……

With all my fears,

I sat and thought…

What made me rot?

Gain was my friend…

Faith, my foe.

Hearts I broke,

Curses I evoked.

Lies I sold,

I was too bold.

In the wake of my anger,

I could never see the danger.

I know, I know…I had erred always!!

Nobody here,

To wipe my tears...

All alone here I am….in the darkness

Peace,

Myyaa

That someone.......

Loving is so simple...it is so natural...it just flows......when you love someone, it is like a blessing.

When someone's world revolves around you..when that someone's day begins with you ends with you....that someone's only purpose of life is your happiness, your  smile is that someone's joy....If there is anything that is divine, it is this....loving and being loved!

When someone loves you so much..you never want to hurt  him, never want to let him down, never want him to feel ashamed because of you, never want to go against him.

Your single teardrop is that someone's biggest worry, your illness is that someone's pain...that someone is really special.

At times you feel why that someone loves you so much...I firmly believe that there is a reason for everything..but when it comes to love..I feel there is no reason for loving..because loving is just loving.

But life is strange, it always questions you...just when you think you have the answer..it simply changes the question and you have to begin all over again.

But every question has an answer. 

If the question is ..can you give give up a few things for him.....of course that someone never asks you for that..neither does he ever makes you feel that,  you hurt him...because he loves you.

The answer has to be yes.. because you love him too.

Not everyone is so lucky to have that someone in their lives..but I am....I do have that someone.....and that someone is my Dad.


Goblet Pumpkin

Ecstasy

Gosh!!! I don't believe, I have completed my graduation. God! As it is said... at times, words can't say it all.

When the farewell party began..there was a feeling of deja vu..... the parties that we had given to the outgoing students in the preceeding years.

But deep down somewhere, there was something that I just can't express...it is beyond the reach of words. It must be ecstasy, must be sadness, must be a sort of curiousity....Dunno what!!

When a dear friend of mine went on to the podium, to share her reminiscences... all the four years came alive......everything... ..every moment..

-Goblet Pumpkin

Quote of the day!

Golden words by Martin Luther King,

If you can't fly, run!

If you can't run, walk!

If you can't walk, crawl!

But whatever you do, you have to keep moving forward.

Faith..

Sometimes you can't figure out why certain things happen. But there is a reason for everything. When there is a purpose for everything, then why is it not revealed when we wish to know it. Why life always has riddles, why do we at times feel helpless, why? 

You know nothing. But you need to keep going. 

The only thing that keeps me going is the faith.The faith that, it is He, who wants all this to happen. Even the leaf of the tree won't move without His bidding. So, I am happy, because it is He who knows everything & will take care of it.

I simply need to go on........and the rest will be fine.     

Though I have the keys but only He knows, when it will actually unlock.  It is like you have everything but still you have nothing. Dunno what!!!

-Goblet Pumpkin

Silence..

Tears.... my solace, they help me out, it is a sort of catharsis...... they soothe my pain, they heal my wounds....my lone companion.....Naaahhhh!! This isn't me, it can't be me. I just don't want to be!!

Strength is my only  solace, faith my mate......prayers my healers, words are my true companions.

When I fail, I try. When I succeed, I rejoice. When I hurt, I repent. When I love, I  pray.When I trust, I believe. 

But I don't know what should I do, when someone just throws me out,  I don't know. All, I have is silence. When voice echoes you can hear it, but when silence echoes you can feel it. This silence crawls into your thoughts, your mind, your heart, your nerves...........God Forbid! 

Time is the best medicine, it cures almost everything no matter how fatal. But what will remain, what will always follow me is this..........the silence...and all the questions that it blankets....will always keep echoing.

-Goblet Pumpkin

You never know......

People come, people go, in the hustle bustle of life...there are so many things that come and go…..you don’t even realize…..what went, who went, what we only know is who stayed...

There is someone, who when comes in....just comes....never goes, not because you never let him/her go……..but because that someone was just to stay....as if it was destined....and you remain puzzled, amazed ... you gasp…..wonder how marvellous, how intricate the world is!!

You feel, in spite of all the evils, in spite of all the vices,world is still a place which is worth to live in. World is full of betrayals, hatred, but still....you trust, you love…you live!!

Life seems to be a blessing, a gift and you savour it. The way you look at everything changes, altogether a new paradigm, everything is just good, there is nothing that seems bad, everything goes your way….this is how you think....a fairy tale!!!!

But fairy tales aren’t real. Are they? No they aren’t, they are just fantasies. But life isn’t a fantasy, it’s real and so it dawns on you, was this all nothing but just an illusion?

You simply never know…..

Goblet Pumpkin

Where am I heading.....

I still remember the anxiety, the nervousness ...so vividly as though it was just yesterday.....the night before the first day of my college. I was secretly praying that the night should lengthen its course infinitely so that the sun wouldn’t rise and I wouldn’t go. Foolishness I know!!

 And so began an unforgettable odyssey...of course to my surprise. With each passing day I learnt the nuances of college life. The innocent mischiefs, frivolity of school life were replaced by competition and wickedness here. This was how I perceived it then.

 New faces, new friends, new teachers altogether a new ambience. There was a lot of enthusiasm around, there was a spark in the eyes ....to prove the world what I am....an eagerness to know...a curiosity to find....the unknown.

 Be, it a brisk walk through the corridor or an accidental (later intentional mass bunks!!!) class bunk, there was always a fear….what if the teacher would know, what if someone would ask my name right in the middle of the corridor, what if I would go weak in my knees and fall down...so many what-ifs...these were my constant fears.

 I know all this provokes nothing but laughter. But it was just this way!!

 But I never realized how and when the what-ifs gradually transformed into so-whats. Yes, so what if a miss a class, so what if I score low in a test, big deal if I do not complete lab journal in time...I simply didn’t know how it happened.

 It was probably a time when the so called new college for me had become my college, and the new faces my friends...mind you not just friends...but friends for a lifetime!!!!! I know I am lucky.

I always knew that life is full of surprises. But little did I know these surprises can even be the most wonderful gifts of one's life. It was here in my college; with my friends I realized this.

 But don’t know how time took its toll, like it always takes...

Dunnno how ...the internals, exams, preparation holidays, lab exams, fresher parties, farewell parties, long chats, silliest of silly jokes, those smiles are just about to go away. Everything was wonderful and I used to wonder how can it be so beautiful!!!

 Hey are u thinking... is this the end??.....Nahhhh!!!!   It is indeed a new beginning (a cliché…. but who cares!!).

 Though there won’t be any class lectures now, but each day in the scorching heat of life will be more than a lesson. Though there won’t be anyone by my side to guide, but I will have my mistakes with me to find the path. Though, after a grueling day I won’t find anyone to crack a joke and laugh like a freak....a hearty laugh…

 But, I can always message my friends….talk to them….and I know they would be there for me, like always .I told you, I am lucky!!!

 Hey! but,  what if they wouldn’t care a damn about me...then I would definitely kick each one of them & bring them back to their senses (like how I kick them now!!)...ha-ha...and then we will be fine again...and loads n loads of fun as usual...Inshaallah. 

 So no worries.....CHEERS!!!!!

-Goblet Pumpkin